I have done some soul searching. Yes, I know, silly–but I am trying to be more verbal–put my feelings in my blog. But, I feel you need to know me first. *Waves* What? You mean you need more than a casual wave to know me? Okay, well where do I begin–I will start with how I got here.
A bit ago (3 years ago if counting), my heart was shattered i.e. someone came in and took it out of my chest and walked away. In reality, I came home one day and found my significant other putting his shoes in a bag–I immediately identified this as, um, something is wrong and inquired. To my dismay, after 2 years, my fairy tale ended. It shook me to my very core. As any reasonable 29 year old woman scorned, I took his phone to the bathroom, and sifted through its contents. And I found it. A girl. The other girl. It was something about the bagel she just got for breakfast, but I saw in front of me another relationship blooming while mine desinigrated in my hands.
After a month of sleeping and not eating, I tried to mingle with people in real life. I did a bit of online gaming. I played Lord of the Rings Online–and that is where Sophee was born. I wanted to be anywhere, but my real life. Months passed, friends had that look in their eye, the one where you know they think you should be all healed, but you are not. You can’t talk about it anymore because it is in the past–gone and done. I dated. I played a part in their world, but I came home, and I was someone entirely different–the woman I wanted to be–confident, humorous, and loveable–Sophee. So, a break-up is what sent me to an online game.
Soon my sea shifted, and I did find someone new. I was brought to a port, and at its dock was Miguel. We talked. We laughed into the morning. And soon, what I wanted to be–happened–I was back to being happy–2 years and a very dark road later. I had never met such a passionate man before, and he found a way of letting me be okay with being me.
He brought me into SL, and I took his last name–Mojo. While our relationship still continues in the real world, our SL one diminished, as he didn’t have the means to play. But, it brought me to this place. I have no idea the path I am on, but I have to think I am here for some reason. Below is one of the few snapshots I got of both of us when we started SL around 6 months ago (cringes but loves it all the same):
And, alas, Sophee Mojo was born.
*Credits* –for portrait
[LeLutka]-NICOLE hair/Dark Brunette
Whippet & Buck – TRUTH District Opening Gift